A close friend of mine gave everything he had to AA. He went to meetings every day, he had a sponsor, but he still failed. He blamed himself, but it wasn't the failure, it was the approach. According to https://genesishouse.net/blog/....what-is-the-success- even the most dedicated people don't always succeed in this program. It is a tool, not a panacea. If you are trying something else, keep going. Your recovery matters.